Poor neglected bloggie
I haven't updated here since 11/26 - anyone reading this probably knows about the LiveJournal and/or tblog blogs anyway, but just to mix things up a bit, here's a new post :)
The date on 11/27 was fab. It went SO well that I couldn't believe I had been turning this fellow down for 5 months - a fact he isn't likely to let me forget :) He lives rather far away though, so no telling what might happen there. We've talked on the phone for hours since and he sent me flowers for my birthday (blush). We spent a lot of time together this previous weekend AND he met my parents. Not like "I need to meet your parents" but they happened to be around. He's very different from anyone I've seen before and it feels very healthy. That's a good thing!
As I babbled earlier, I met someone for lunch in early November and we hit it off pretty well. My heart still goes pitty pat at the thought. I also got swept in some wave of... something... and about drove myself batty over it. I turned into my grandmother "so, when are you going to come see me?" Everytime we talked she'd ask me that, and everytime she said it I wanted to see her less and less. If he had been interested I'm sure I killed it. I'm really sorry, too, because I think we could've been grand friends if not more.
Which leads me to the question - am I even ready for dating? Going out - sure, anyone can go out - but for dating? Trusting, giving someone my heart? I'm quite sure I wasn't ready earlier. The anger and bitterness were too strong. Then I felt like I needed to date because *I* needed company, which isn't the motivation I had really hoped for. To NEED someone's attention rather than to receive it gracefully? Ewww.
I liked how my pal Melodee put it - we were talking about the phrase "my other half" and she said something like "I'd rather offer my husband a whole woman than just a half a person." I've been rolling that around in my head. There's a lot to that little phrase.
Christmas is fast approaching. The tree is up and decorated and the lights are up outside. I did my best to get the bows on the outside of the house - standing on tiptoe is still a bit iffy. I still need to find and fill out the Christmas cards and I'm only 1/3 of the way through gift-shopping - Ack!
At any rate, things are moving forward and I'm still smiling :)
The date on 11/27 was fab. It went SO well that I couldn't believe I had been turning this fellow down for 5 months - a fact he isn't likely to let me forget :) He lives rather far away though, so no telling what might happen there. We've talked on the phone for hours since and he sent me flowers for my birthday (blush). We spent a lot of time together this previous weekend AND he met my parents. Not like "I need to meet your parents" but they happened to be around. He's very different from anyone I've seen before and it feels very healthy. That's a good thing!
As I babbled earlier, I met someone for lunch in early November and we hit it off pretty well. My heart still goes pitty pat at the thought. I also got swept in some wave of... something... and about drove myself batty over it. I turned into my grandmother "so, when are you going to come see me?" Everytime we talked she'd ask me that, and everytime she said it I wanted to see her less and less. If he had been interested I'm sure I killed it. I'm really sorry, too, because I think we could've been grand friends if not more.
Which leads me to the question - am I even ready for dating? Going out - sure, anyone can go out - but for dating? Trusting, giving someone my heart? I'm quite sure I wasn't ready earlier. The anger and bitterness were too strong. Then I felt like I needed to date because *I* needed company, which isn't the motivation I had really hoped for. To NEED someone's attention rather than to receive it gracefully? Ewww.
I liked how my pal Melodee put it - we were talking about the phrase "my other half" and she said something like "I'd rather offer my husband a whole woman than just a half a person." I've been rolling that around in my head. There's a lot to that little phrase.
Christmas is fast approaching. The tree is up and decorated and the lights are up outside. I did my best to get the bows on the outside of the house - standing on tiptoe is still a bit iffy. I still need to find and fill out the Christmas cards and I'm only 1/3 of the way through gift-shopping - Ack!
At any rate, things are moving forward and I'm still smiling :)
posted by AlmstHvn at 9:23 AM
1 Comments:
Ugh - I need to do Christmas cards before we head out. As far as dating - give it a shot. It might not work out, but at least you won't regret it later and wonder what if?
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